I spent some time reading about ADD on the internet and then walked over to the library to get a book on it. I got "Think Fast! The ADD Experience" edited by Thom Hartmann & Janie Bowman with Susan Burgess which came from the Compuserve forum on ADD. It's a very good book and right at the front under "You know you have ADD when..." I fit most of the criteria, as with the articles yesterday.

I didn't realize that it was so common in adults but everything I looked at I fit and it explained so much. I don't like the idea of being labeled, but I keep seeing why I never fit in anywhere. I don't know if I like itbut out of the twenty criteria for ADD in adults I fit all twenty.

I think the one that bothers me the most is the lack of social skills. I've never felt comfortable in social situations because I never have a clue as to what I should do. I really don't know how I am suppose to behave and I'm sure that everyone knows. This makes me just go cold and pretend that it doesn't matter and then people think I'm unfriendly.

Because of this I push people away and avoid social situations. I literally go into a depression when there's a social occasion I need to go to. I even worry when I'm going to visit my children because I'm sure I'll do something that will embarrass them. Not that that is going to stop me from seeing them, but I do get depressed before hand.