I finally found some brown shades at an art supply store. I never did find any brown ribbon. I would think that brown ribbon would look great with cream colored paper but, no, only pastels. The art supply store was great. Every time I go there I want to be an artist just so I can use all the wonderful colors and materials.

I've been trying for the last couple months to make an effort to live in the now instead of day dreaming about what I want to be. It's very difficult. I've realized that this is my way of living dangerously as I can be bold and dangerous without actually being in danger because I have a very strong resistance to doing things that are really stupid. However, I also have a very strong need for new things so day dreaming is my way of doing this.

Since I've been trying to not day dream as much, I seem to be doing it more, or maybe, I'm just noticing how much of it I do. Day dreams can be so much more interesting than reality but they do use time that I could be using to actually accomplish something. Now I'm trying to direct the day dreams, but, like I said in the first paragraph, I'm not too good at real life, even in real life.

I think a lot of this is because I never felt very connected with real life since I have always felt out of sync with other people. I also have noticed that when I day dream more I read less fiction and more non-fiction. Maybe we all live in a dream world, but some of us do it with dream and some of us do it with novels and some people do it so much that they do lose touch with reality.

I sometimes worry about losing touch, but I've never had a problem keeping in touch with the basics, like going to work. I understand more about why I feel out of sync since I've been reading about attention deficit disorder, but I see it more as a different way of seeing the world than a real disability, though it does make life rather difficult.

Walked - 1 mile