Why I am an atheist

I have really tried to believe because it is so comforting, but I just haven't been able to. I don't see that there is evidence for a god. I do miss church because I have always loved many people that go to church.

I was brought up in a very christian family and tried to believe most of my life. I confessed and prayed and tried to be a christian, but it just left me cold. I never felt any connection, any person/spirit/whatever out there. As I grew older and read accounts of both atheists who became christians and christians who realized they were atheists, I realized that I also felt the reasons for not believing in god were much stronger than the arguments to believe in god.

The final straw was the argument that even if you didn't think there was a god you were better off if you did believe, or pretend to believe, because if you were wrong you would go to hell. I decided I would rather go to hell than believe out of fear of hell. Since then everything I have read or thought confirms my conviction that there is no god.


Where I'm headed in things of the spirit.

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